Keren's Philosophy

Keren's philosophy inspired me quite a bit. Love is too often sold off in movies and TV dramas as a cheap accessory many young people spend all their free time looking for and stressing over. Our generation often finds themselves worried they'll never find the right person and that perhaps they need practice before they find the person they want to fall in love with. What irony it is that you get to choose who it is you want to fall in love with. Isn't love supposed to be selfless? Isn't love supposed to be mutual? How do you even know your supposed lover is going to answer to all your needs, and provide you with the best support and care you can find? If you don't know all this then what is it you are basing this choice to fall in love with the person? In fact, you can only choose to become friends with a person, and after friends maybe you can add another layer, and then another, and maybe you can find yourself selflessly thinking of them before yourself and truly caring for them more than anyone else, and that may be something close to love... who knows? In any case, it is not a game, and not a quest. You don't need to try many people to find the right one, you don't need to search for "the right one," you don't need to do anything at all... just be yourself, be happy, be comfortable, know what you want, and everything will fall into place when the time is right and you are ready.
Also, I was really inspired by this movie I saw, "Remember Me." It was all about how you can never know what will happen to you, and you have to live life to the fullest while you have it. Throughout the movie the line "Whatever you do will be insignificant, but it is important that you do it" - Gandhi. And at the end the main character added "because no one else will." It was so crazy how much love he felt for his sister, and how he did what he felt was right no matter what the circumstances. How deaths influenced and burned through the characters' souls and caused them to live more fiercefully and more desperately than they could have otherwise. Time is scarce, enjoyment and love are key, the balance is a trick some never manage to find.

I also have been thinking a lot about my reactions to people. When I am in a bad mood I take things very personally and immediately get hurt over tiny things that in a better mood I laugh and crack a joke about. In a bad mood I sit silently in a group and smile occasionally at bits of conversation, while I could be enjoyably taking the lead on a topic of my choice. It is all up to me and my own attitude, which I indeed choose. It is so hard to see the light and find the lighthearted happy side of me whenever I need her, and return to the serious, down-to-business girl when necessary… I often sink into weeks of sadness and can’t seem to crawl out of the pit. I just need to take control of my life at those bits. Find confidence in any shape or form and make something out of nothing. Feel, a lot of times it really helps me to see a powerful movie like that and just feel strongly to remember I can. Talking, about anything just a deep, analytical, thought-proviking chat reminds me what a serious, interesting, fun, motivated, driven girl I can be. I really just need to find the rescue bait and send it down quick whenever I feel myself slipping, because down there it is so hard to get back out. Everything hurts more, sensitivity levels are tripled and laughter is strictly forbidden. Therfore, I must always find the emergency exit, and not hesitate to take matters into my own hands.